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Sharing one of my Neptune pleasures is music, jazz being my favorite genre. This song is a favorite of mine for years as I have been a fan of Paul Hardcastle’s music since the late 80s. It also feels like natal a 3rd house Neptune in Scorpio with Pluto transiting the 5th house. Inner Changes happening indeed!
Saturn is still performing the task 😉 of the Awakener busting down the thick layer of fog. As I mentioned in the last post Saturn is activating Big G.
Now the best description of the 12th house I’ve heard is actually from Vedic astrology. They say that the 12th house are secrets that are unknown to you.
So here’s my personal observation on a 12th house Leo Moon squaring a 3rd house Scorpio Neptune. Secrets in the family that one or both parents may have a personality disorder or harmful behavior that you don’t know about. The family appearing to society to be normal and loving. Confusing, deceptive, secretive, destructive, emotionally manipulative, dis-empowering, devaluing communication behind closed doors. Empowering, spiritual, inclusive, support for the child’s true personality, communication in public. Feeling alone and invisible in one’s immediate early environment. Never knowing what kinda of hell is gonna happen from day-to-day though the chaos was mostly confined to the weekend. The appearance of harmony in the daily environment. Overshadowed in terms of communication in the home. I’m sure there’s more but that’s all I can come up with right now.
The crazy part for me is that I thought much of what was going on in my household was a secret. Turns out that my birth mother’s family had some idea of what was going on. How do I know that? Well they revealed being witnesses to physical abuse when I was a toddler. Remember I said earlier that the 12th house is secrets that are unbeknownst to you. I don’t remember much prior to the age of 6 and what they were telling me was well before that age. (Neptune in the 3rd) And maybe it’s a good thing that I can’t remember.
All this time thinking that they had no clue about what was really going on at home (12th house Moon). Of course they did not have all the details because they were not living in the same city but there was an uncle who did live in the same city. I’m finding out that this uncle talked regularly to his mother (my grandmother) about what was going on in my household.
I just found out something else. This uncle was going to pay (Venus) for me to go to college. My birth mother (Moon) refused to sign the paperwork. Yes, she refused to sign paperwork for her only child (natal Mercury conjunct Saturn) to get a college education (9th house NN) that was going to be paid for with someone else’s resources (Scorpio). What kind of mother does that?
I think this is reflected by my 8th house Sun/Mars conjunction as well especially with Uranus transiting this house and near my Sun along with Pluto transiting the 5th squaring my Sun.
Here’s another live and in living color astrology in action. A few weeks ago when Saturn was within 2 degrees of my Neptune, I was transporting my birth mother to her doctors appointment. We left there and made a stop at a chain pharmacy to pick up her prescriptions. I went in to get them as she said her feet won’t let her walk. As an aside, she has always had trouble with her feet but it has gotten progressively worse since my birth father died. I, her daughter has Saturn in Pisces and I don’t have problems with my feet and yes my Saturn is inconjunct/quincunx my Moon. Hmmm.
Anyway, I come out, get in my car to take her on yet another errand and my car will not crank. Turn the key and a bit of clicking, then nothing.
Remember I said in the last post that Saturn’s activation of Big G has awakened me to the reality of patterns of childhood interactions between me and my birth mother? Well, I have been getting warnings of the illusions I had regarding my mother for years but I ignored them. Without getting into all the details leading up to this, I feel like Saturn used this as the cosmic 2 × 4 to literally say, “Stop (Saturn)your participation in this BS (Scorpio) otherwise you will end up SOL, used up and up the creek without a paddle. What she’s said (3rd house) and what she’s done has not matched up.” Her actions are much louder than her words. (Mars in the 8th co-ruling the 3rd)
“When we affirm the very best of and for our children, they have a very different view of their place in the place and position in the world. Don’t call them anything you don’t want them to be. Speak seeds of greatness in their minds, and they will grow into strong sturdy plants.” Iyanla Vanzant
3rd house Awareness to Pluto’s 4th house Departing- Transiting Saturn as the Awakener, Saturn square Moon
This post began last year in August but for some reason I did not finish it. But I am a Mercury retrograde conjunct Saturn in Pisces native with its ruler in the 3rd conjunct the SN. My thoughts sometimes go back down into the ether waiting for just the right trigger…and BAM. Somebody done pulled the pin on that grenade and I think it was Saturn. I’m also thinking even though Pluto is now firmly in the 5th house, it’s still sitting on the cusp of the 4th and 5th houses.
The inspiration for the original post and now realizing what should have been part 1 of the 3rd house Awareness to Pluto’s 4th house Departing, came from a post on a astrology group that I used to be involved with. The question presented to us-when or what were your worse transits. I said July/Aug 1979. Now I don’t remember exactly what month it was.. but I know it was summertime, after school was out (June), after the holiday (July 4th), after my birth mother’s birthday and a hot early Sunday morning. OK to clarify since I use and will be using the term birth mother and birth father -I am not adopted. I had also mentioned that Saturn thru the 12th conjuncting my Moon the last time it was in Leo was also rough because it brought that life altering event day back to my memory as I had for years carried on as if nothing happened and how I had glossed over the reality of my childhood. Saturn’s conjunction of the Moon was the beginning of a new Saturn cycle about events and situations of the Moon and looking back at all that has gone on before.
So, as I edit this post transiting Saturn is conjunct my natal Neptune setting off Big G-my grand square or g-square as I like to call it. Big G consists of my 3rd house Neptune conjunct the South Node in Scorpio opposing the 9th house North Node in Taurus squaring the 12th house Moon in Leo and the 6th house Venus in Aquarius. This is the 1st square of Saturn and the Moon since the conjunction. And whatdayah know, my Progressed Moon has recently crashed in on this party as well conjuncting my North Node along with the Progressed Sun in waning conjunction. Ah ha…transiting Saturn opposing the Progressed Moon. The 4th/10th dynamics that I briefly mentioned in the last post at play here.
And adding fireworks to this party-Uranus. Yep, Uranus. The crazy part is, I just realized Uranus has been poppin’ off smoke bombs of wake your a** up in Big G for the last 3 years. First by sesquisquare/sesquiquadrate (135 aspect) to my Moon when @ 5-6 degrees of Aries. When Uranus moved to exact conjunction of my Sun, it activated my Sun/Venus semi-square, something that I picked up on and wrote about in “Transiting Minor Aspects-Not So Minor”.
Pluto has also dropped its own A bombs in the G starting with the Moon while in the early degrees of Capricorn while plowing through my 4th, stealthily leading the charge of reformation.
Then it hit me to go back and re-read to connect the dots…something I do a lot with a natal Mercury retrograde. In Liz Greene’s book “Saturn- A New Look at an Old Devil” she says this:
“…There is much that goes on within a human being of which he remains unaware, and this does not apply only to repressed emotions…If the individual makes no effort to expand his consciousness so that he can understand the nature of this total unfoldment and can begin to cooperate with it, then it will seem that he is the pawn of fate and has no control over his life. He can only earn his freedom by learning about himself so that he can understand what value a particular experience has for the development of his whole self. And nothing stimulates a man into this kind of exploration faster than frustration, which is the gift of Saturn…”
Erin Sullivan in her book “Saturn in Transit” refers to transiting Saturn as “Awakener”. Liz Greene basically says the same thing above. I know you’re saying Saturn as a Awakener?!! WTH are you talking about?!! Saturn is the task master, the disciplinary, the authority, the oppressor, the blocker, dark, heavy and all those things that sound absolutely nothing like a awakener or liberator, right? I was thinking the same thing when I first read that statement too.
But it really is true. For one thing Saturn ruled the sign of Aquarius before Uranus was discovered and is still the co-ruler of the sign of Aquarius which is well…the awakener, the liberator. How and why do I see Saturn as a awakener?
Well when Saturn was in Leo and transiting my 12th house, I decided to stop putting relaxers of any kind in my hair. That was an awakening/liberation/rebellion whatever you want to call it, from the accepted standard of straight hair as the epitome of beauty. Saturn crossing my Ascendant took that awakening/liberation/rebellion even further by making dreadlocks of my hair. I also began to study astrology starting with my chart to find out why I was not feeling like my normal, relatively cheery, I’m here to help, let’s get stuff done self. Awakening my mind which the Moon represents in Vedic astrology. During this transit as I also began to acknowledge whether I wanted to or not, the repressed emotions about the very traumatic even in my life that occurred in 1979, the sexual molestation from my birth father, and the emotionally abusive relationship with my mother for the first time in my life.
Saturn transiting my 3rd house activating the mind and now square my Moon has awakened/liberated from the grave, the 12th house Moon secrets for the first time about that event in 1979 to family other than my husband and now to the world. It’s also made me face the reality of my 12th house Moon and let go of the hope (Neptune) that I have or ever had a family. Like Liz Green said in the quote above, ya gotta EARN your freedom by doing the work. Pluto, Uranus and Neptune started the deep background dirty work but Saturn has laid it on the table in 3D where even Ray Charles can see what’s been going on.
To be continued…
Inspired by my friend, astro sister Ursula at “An Upturned Soul” and her series Internet Treasures, I decided to start a similarly themed series of “medicine” blogs, videos or whatever I happen to run across that are helping me in this journey of self discovery. Red pills to stimulate thought, to move more into the KNOWing of self and move away from the LEDGE of ignorance of self that we find ourselves tetering on. In order to really begin to heal from falling off that damn ledge cracking our skull open one to many times because we can NOW actually start to see it.
So for my first post under this tag(?) will be a series of videos recently uploaded to a YouTube channel that I have been subscribed to for quite awhile.
I hope that you can see all 4 videos on the page and get something out of them. Especially those of us with the Uranus/Pluto conjunction in Virgo. They also talk a little bit about Uranus transits at the end of the video on the 10th, 11th and 12th house video.
Oh my, in typical natal Mercury retro fashion I forgot to add the link to the EvolutionaryAstroNet YouTube channel. Along with this series of videos they have recently uploaded a boat load of other videos. Some in reference to previous configurations in the sky but still very relevant.
Enjoy and most of all get to know and love thyself! 🙂
I’ve found it quite coincidental that Mercury was retrograde ( I have Mercury retrograde natally in Pisces), Saturn and the North Node were all in Scorpio in my 3rd house and of course Pluto forming an exact square to Uranus who is transiting my 8th house, during Pluto’s last weeks in my 4th house.
What has occurred to me during this time is that having a Pluto-Uranus conjunction means whatever house or planet in the sign of Scorpio is not only ruled by Pluto and co-ruled by Mars, but it is also greatly influenced by Uranus. I’m sure I mentioned it before but if I did not, I was born just 3 days before one of the exact conjunctions so these to heavy hitters energies work like one. For me Scorpio is on my 3rd house which has Neptune conjunct the South Node.
Secretive, combative, confusing, detached, manipulative, jealous communication inflamed by alcohol and sexual abuse. Donna Van Toen in her book “The Astrologer’s Node Book” says that the 3rd house is education for survival. From another resource which I don’t remember where I got this from “…job or health of the mother”. Hmm…
Now who does the child get this education from and I mean before they go to pre-school or kindergarten? Their parents or legal guardians. And what planets/signs/axis are representative of the parents? Moon/Cancer/generally the 4th house for the mother, Saturn/Capricorn/10th house for the father.
I find it ironic that she uses the word “survival” in describing the 3rd house as the first thing I think of when I hear the word “survival” is being in a life or death scenario and fighting like hell to ensure that one stays on the “life” side of the equation. I bet that’s because of having Scorpio on the 3rd with the ruler in the 1st, co-ruler in the 8th. It really has been and continues to be a battle (Mars) to keep my mind (Mercury) from slipping into the abyss (Neptune) because of absolutely shocking (Uranus) communication (Mercury)and actions (Mars) from those that society teaches to honor (Saturn) and were supposed to love and protect you (Moon-4th/Saturn-10th house axis).
I tie the Moon into to this because my 3rd house Neptune-South Node conjunction, squares my 12th house Moon and 6th house Venus and opposes my 9th house North Node. This grand square has affected my life more than my mutable t-square across the angular houses (1st/7th/10th) probably because it’s in fixed signs. It’s like no matter which direction I move in somebody in my life is not gonna be happy and I’m not gonna be happy or healthy…that is if I continue to follow the status quo. According to Steven Forrest in “The Book of Pluto” “…Born with a Pluto-Uranus aspect in the natal chart, a person has made a bid for freedom…” Oh shit, I wonder if on a unconcious level they knew this especially as I began to talk and be curious about my environment? This is probably when the dissolution of my true personality began.
So on Oct 21st, the Taurus Moon conjuncting my North Node set off my t-square. I’m sure in cahoots with Pluto to force me finally do something I should have done a very long time ago-expose my mother and father’s behavior to my mother’s side of the family which I did on November 1st-the day of the 4th exact Uranus/Pluto square. True to form, it was a sudden (Uranus) communication of a secret of a sexual nature (Pluto/Scorpio) and alcoholism (Neptune/Pisces) that I had carried around inside for 34 years.
To be continued…
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Been a minute since I posted last as there has been quite a lot happening emotionally since that last post which I’ll be writing about in the future posts. I’m guessing that was the final going away gift from Pluto.
Speaking of going away….YES!!! Halle-freakin-lujah!!!
Sometime this morning after a 15 year occupation of my 4th house, Pluto has packed up and moved out for good!! That deserves a big happy face and celebration!! 🙂 🙂
In honor of Mars (my Sun’s ruler) moving into Virgo (my rising sign), even though it’s still in my 12th house, I felt the need to start this challenge with emphasis on the movin’ part. Now you’d think being an Aries Sun with Mars in Aries conjunct and a Virgo rising, that I’d love exercising and going to the gym.
Nope…not at all. At least not the regular type of exercise. Exercising my jaws to chew food like cookies, potato chips-all the bad stuff, that kind of movement I love! However that kind of movement leads to the movement of my waistline outwards to the point where my jeans start to feel like I’m in one of those magician’s boxes that cuts you in half. Add some ink and you’ve got a waist bead without the beads. Y’all know what I’m talking about. Jeans don’t lie. lol
Plus I hate to go shopping. The only place I want to shop is in my closet-to get back into my clothes where they are comfortable. And to a Virgo rising, comfort and health is crucial. Not to mention its a lot cheaper to wear what I already have and add a few other pieces to freshen up the look than it is to buy bigger clothes.
I also need to get myself moving again because things like heart disease, diabetes, rheumatoid arthritis and cancer are part of my familial past. No surprise as I have Sagittarius on the IC and a Moon-Neptune-Venus t-square with Venus in the 6th. And I’m no spring chicken but I’d like to keep some of that spring in my step as I season. Plus I think part of my mission is to for the buck of the way my folks have lived in the past stop with me and move on in a totally different direction. (Pluto-Uranus conjunct in the 1st conjunct my Ascendant)
What I do love is walking, music and dancing. At the same time I love sports but that sometimes requires at least one other participant. I was looking for a way to move my body in a gentle way, non stop that does not require anyone else, I don’t have to leave home , does not need any special equipment and was not boring. In 2009-2010, my husband and I were going to the park to walk on the mile track that was around a pond. It was close to home but a bit to far away to walk to get to it. We stopped going after someones car was broken into and the city rounded up the geese that were living at the park and killed them. Even if that had not happened, I would not have been comfortable going alone. But I missed how good walking made me feel and not to mention, getting back into jeans I had not been able to comfortably wear for several years.
Soooo…what I’m challenging you to do is join me and make yourself a playlist of your favorite upbeat music and put it on your phone, mp3 player, boom box or whatever you have and “dance walk” for at least 15 minutes non-stop 3-7 days a week inside your house, or in your backyard. I figure why wait until the January 1 to start a healthy regimen again…start now! That’s Mars and Virgo right? 🙂
Ok, I know y’all are asking, what do I mean by “dance walk”? All that means is walking to the beat of the music and dancing a bit while moving forward. Simple but adding a little more flare and fun than just plain walking.
Because you are at home, it takes away the excuse of not being able to afford the gym, getting to the gym, the walking track, it’s raining outside etc.
I started this last week, in my house the first two days then I took it outside, “dance walking” around my backyard. And you know what…it was really fun and like I said earlier, I have walked longer than 15 minutes. As each song came on I wanted to keep going. Its like a party of one. I added more songs to my playlist Friday without knowing how much more time I was adding until I finished walking the playlist. It ended up being 1 hour and yesterday I added a few more songs. I ended up walking 1 1/2 hours! Now I’d like to be able to do that everyday, but I know that might not be possible but I will do at least 15 minutes. In just one week I’m feeling better!
So I’m challenging y’all to do this for at least 15 minutes non-stop 3-7 times per week. Longer if you can but at least 15 minutes. Now even though Mars will only be in Virgo for 6 weeks , this is an open-ended challenge as there is no time limit on health. Hopefully for me and you, this will become a daily practice, just as important as brushing your teeth everyday.
Let’s get Movin’ and Groovin’! Also let me know in the comments a few of the songs on your walking playlist.
While on YouTube the other day by chance (the way new information sometimes get to me, which then sends me off on an obsessive search to learn more) I ran across an absolutely remarkable woman named Jane Elliot. No, not the actress who plays Tracy Quartermaine on the soap opera “General Hospital”.
Back to what I was saying, discovering Jane Elliot. When I run across folks like this, I do one of my favorite pastime of guessing their astrological placements to see why I’m making such a connection to this person.
After a quick search I found out her birthdate and birthplace, unfortunately no time of birth listed. No problem as the only placements you can’t get without a time of birth are the houses and the degree of the Moon so I did a chart with a midnight birth time.
Now go and watch clips of her work on YouTube or read this interview done with her on PBS. Is it any surprise that she has a Uranus/Pluto square? What do you think…possible Cancer rising putting that Pluto in her 1st house and Uranus in the 10th/9th possibly conjunct the Midheaven? And the Moon in the 1st as well? Since it’s at the beginning of Cancer at the first minutes of the day, the Moon was in Cancer for the entire day. Another possibility, if she was not born in the wee hours of the morning, but in the evening hours, the closer that Cancer Moon is to conjuncting Pluto. The reason I think that – her boldness to go deep and tackle the subject of racism and during the most explosive racially charged time in the United States through innovative, pioneering thought-provoking teaching as her career. And she did does this by making people feel the experience of being a minority. No woman had ever done this before her and it definitely was shocking…how dare she challenge the status quo of the time!
I also find it ch-ironic that I would learn about Jane Elliot at this precise time of Saturn, Uranus, Pluto and Chiron transits to my Ascendant. Also the release of this post “Breaking Bad Habits from a fellow 1st house Uranus Pluto. Many messages from these planets via these remarkable women that I am grateful for. Saturn is making it’s 3rd sextile as I mentioned in this post ,Uranus is making its 2nd quincunx, Pluto a 3rd and last trine and Chiron is making its 2nd opposition.
Where do I begin unraveling this pattern of messages?! Saturn known as the disciplinary teacher, keeper of time. Mrs. Elliot born in 1933 is most definitely representative of Saturn as an elder, the 3rd house of survival education and in Scorpio…the shizzle authorities prefer to keep hidden. Saturn is transiting my 3rd house so it seems that the other message from Saturn is saying to trust in the rightness and power of your own authority. You know what is right, you know what is wrong. Just because it’s always been done a certain way or a certain group says it’s right or the right way does not mean it’s right for you or anybody else.
Uranus I think carries this message even further bringing in the aspect of courage to be no matter how uncomfortable it might be to others especially when it is of benefit to the whole. The whole is made up of individual unique parts and is only as strong as the individual parts are, whether it’s a relationship or society. Mrs Eliott again shows this in her work that she does to this day as far as I can tell. I love the way she says “I’m gonna be the bitch for the day”. Unfortunately when a woman points out the truth or does not play the role of not being seen or heard, that’s one of the names she will be called. A bitch, a nag, etc.
We Virgo risings get a bad wrap for being who we are. We are supposed to point out the details as overlooking the details 9 times out of 10 ends up biting one in the behind later on down the line. Now you have to spend more time fixing the issues that should have been addressed a long time ago because it has gotten bigger due to the passage of time. Valuable time lost, time that you can’t back once spent which makes time much more valuable than money. Following, going along to get along because what I came here to do, the way I am to run in life to fulfill the mission of my Soul is well..not what you say it is. Kinda like trying to put a size 10 foot into a size 9 shoe. Quite painful and it ain’t cute when them dogs (your feet) are barking! Woof, woof or more accurately, Grrr!! Now I like being cute but not at the cost of comfort. And when I say comfort, I mean the comfort that comes from being authentically me.
As Virgo risings we are also supposed to use discernment and with Pluto/Uranus there, ruthless, intuitive discernment. Not ruthless in a mafia way but in a not putting up with BS way. That modus operandi of putting a round peg into a square hole will not cut the mustard anymore and has resulted in physical illness that I had to deal with during previous transits of these heavy hitters. Remember, the 1st house is also a health house as it has to do with your physical body. This is doubly so for me because as a Virgo rising, Aquarius is the sign on the cusp of the 6th house, the other health house. Uranus along with Saturn as co-ruler, rules the sign of Aquarius. Uranus is of course in my 1st house very tightly conjunct Pluto. I’ll tell ya, I’ve learned that nobody will take care of my body/health but me so I can no longer go along with ” the way society says a woman is supposed to be. A few results of practicing discernment-less headaches, less joint pain and my sinuses are better during the height of allergy season.
This also ties into Pluto’s last trine to my Ascendant. A natal 1st house Pluto demands authenticity, action and the correct use of power. Jane Elliot is a reminder that especially having two powerful outer planets in aspect to one another. Otherwise Pluto will get your attention via your health, which affects everything else in your life. And Pluto won’t let up until you do. A lot of people don’t like her method saying it is too harsh, but the issue she addresses-is harsh. So she fights fire with fire to make sure you feel it in a way you can’t ignore. Nor will you forget it. Sounds like just Pluto huh?
Chiron opposing my Ascendant (this will be the second hit), has brought about wounding from others as they are not too happy with me as I’m evolving into someone they are not used to dealing with. Most folks hate change and they definitely don’t like changes made by those close to them for fear that the one making the changes in themselves may outgrow them or they won’t be so easily controlled as they were in the past. Even if I wanted to, I can’t imagine going about life and a way being in relationships like I did when I was in my 20s. How my body looked back then, yes. The mindset, no. oh Hell, no!
While Chiron has brought wounding from those I have been in relationship with for a long time, there has been gifts of healing within those wounds as this transit is marking a closing of a cycle of the way I move along my path. Why is that? In a couple of years Chiron will return to conjunct its place in my natal chart. I think the discovery of Jane Elliot is a message from Chiron as well. She stood for people who were discriminated against and judged because of a different aspect of their appearance, an aspect they were born with. And she began her work when Chiron was in Pisces.
Are you having or had a Saturn, Uranus, Pluto or Chiron transit to your Ascendant? Especially those of us born with the conjunction of Uranus and Pluto? How are you experiencing them?
Saturn is making a 3rd sextile to my Ascendant since entering the sign of Scorpio last year, as it transits my 3rd house. Not sure when it’ll be exact as it is within 1 degree, but it’ll be soon. And man have I been filed with tons of self-doubt about well- everything. You’d think since this is going to be the 3rd hit and a relatively harmonious aspect that I’d have it together and not be fearful of doing-this. Writing. Communicating in general but specifically…about astrology, since I am not an astrologer. But we are talking about Saturn so that should not be too much of a surprise.
You see, in my natal chart Saturn and Chiron are conjunct my chart ruler Mercury retrograde in Pisces in my 7th. Yes, my Mercury is in its detriment and it’s retrograde so most probably would say that’s double detriment…conjunct Saturn and Chiron, triple detriment. And Saturn rules my 5th. Great! Not only is the way I go about life full of obstacles, pain and challenges, my fun and creativity-the stress relief valve, does not flow easily either. Before I knew anything about astrology, I used to think that so imagine how I felt when I did start to learn astrology. Until I realized, I don’t see or approach the world the way most people do. It’s definitely in a roundabout way that I manage to apply some structure to. However, it’s not in the “normal” microwave, gotta have it right now way society functions.
Recently I was looking back at the elementary school report cards I still have. Yeah, that was eons ago. lol My 2nd grade teacher wrote me up for talking too much in class and that I was a slow worker in doing my assigned work. Got in trouble with the parents so I seriously curtailed my speech from that point on, really cracked the books and tried to be invisible. After that I started getting As & Bs. That’s great and shoulda made the parents happy, right? Nope. I was then told that I only had book sense but no common sense. What a crushing thing to hear from your parents as a 7, 8-9 year old kid. That continued as I went through high school as well. Now this did not stop me from achieving academically (was #38 out of a graduating class of 603) but I did not do as well as I could have due to fear of really seeming like a smarty pants to my folks, mainly my mother but my father basically went along with whatever she said whenever he was home. Coupled with the fact in my culture, you were not supposed to be an intelligent female…what, how dare you?!
Water poured into my gas tank so my car can’t move. That’s how I think of the Ascendent as your car. Why..I mean I’m your kid? Afraid I might dig around learn something I’m not supposed to know? Or get an education to learn something that might enable me to have better choices and do better than you? Push repeat play on that mix tape of fear into my ear, ” You aren’t smart enough or have sense enough to see, think or have the skills to do anything “. Better yet, “No man is going to want you”.
But now 30 years later, it’s different…but a bit the same. Because it’s transiting Saturn, I like to look at it in the same way one looks at the Saturn return. After all Saturn in its travels around your chart will not only return to its natal position 30 years later, but will do the same to the other points/planets in your chart. Hence a new beginning or level of maturity to be expressed in this area of the chart.
Ah. I now realize that I need not fear “driving” along my path and I need not fear being who I am, which IS good enough, regardless of who likes it or not. I’ve acquired many skills and probably discovered some that I was born with but depressed by those fearing and maybe even jealous of. How can someone younger possibly know more? Going deep, questioning, analyzing, exploring. Got lots of goodies in the bag and it ain’t no junk.
Saturn has been beneficial as well by making sure Jupiter’s expansion does not get out of hand but at the same time putting effort behind Jupiter’s ideas. Hence the launch of this blog. The thought has been on my mind for some time but honestly I was scared to do it. Heck I’m still scared. That’s one of the reasons why it takes me so long for me to do a post. Writing…and really communication for that matter do not come easy to me. Though Saturn has also helped me to put more effort into my astrology studies by putting myself out there via the World Wide Web. Still gotta discpline myself more but Saturn has given me the push to cut down some of the distractions of the 3rd house. I have Jupiter in Gemini, the sign that naturally rules this house so that also means the distraction level is even higher. Saturn is teaching, if it’s not necessary, it’ll be done at a later time or cut out all together.
Hmm, it seems to me that the Ascendant is more than a mask. True, it’s what we present to world but I think it’s the vehicle that transports the planets in your chart around, so they can do their thang to help you grow and evolve throughout your time on this side of the earth, with the ruler(S) as the wise chauffeur. As least that’s what I think Saturn says…;-)
Do any of you look at the minor aspects of the transiting planets? They have captured my attention for a while now as events and/or feelings emerge but I can’t see anything based on where the planets are and they are not making any major aspects to anything in my chart. However, when I count up the distance the transiting planet is from my natal planet…ah ha!
One case in point…Uranus in Aries is conjunct my 8th Aries Sun. My Sun, Virgo Ascendant and Gemini MC are the only thing I have in the lower tens, single digit degrees in my chart. So only looking at the normally used major aspects, conjunction, sextile, square, trine and opposition, the only aspect Uranus appears to be making is a conjunction to my Sun. Going with the traditional meanings of Uranus conjuncting the Sun in the 8th would probably be something like this-an unexpected (Uranus) sexual encounter (8th house) that makes one shine. Hmph!! It really pisses me off that sex is the one of the main descriptions of the 8th house. The other one- inheritance. Both are non-issues for me and clearly are not hitting close to what is going on in my life. Until..
I remember that my Sun is quincunx my Ascendant and semi-square my 6th house Venus. The semi-square is hardly ever talked about as a natal aspect and even less so by transit. So if transiting Uranus is conjunct my Sun and in the natal chart the Sun is semi-square Venus, then transiting Uranus is semi-square my Venus. That also means that transiting Uranus is affecting my 6th house. Uh yeah, it sure has…in everything that Venus represents and 6th house matters.
Getting back to the other aspect to my Ascendant means that the Uranus/Pluto conjunction is being brought out to the fore, though it will be more so when Uranus aspects my Mars. Transiting Pluto is also semi-square my Venus and squaring my Sun. Also transiting Chiron is semi-sextile my Sun.
I have felt every one of these so-called minor aspects. Uranus and Pluto as I mentioned before, is calling for my Sun to come out of the shadows. Just this week I had to stand up for myself by saying no to a responsibility being put on me ( care-taking of someones child ) because it is the traditional responsibility of a female. Nope, I am not a “traditional” female.
If I was supposed to fill that role, I don’t think I would have been born with Uranus/Pluto conjunct my Ascendant combined with a Sun/Mars Aries conjunction and that Mars quincunxing Uranus and Pluto. My 4th and 5th houses are empty, my Venus is in Aquarius, I have nothing in Cancer and I’ve never had or wanted to have children. Helllooo!! This also brings up the hurt (Chiron) of not being seen for who I was by my father (Sun).
You see, my normal modus operandi prior to the mid-life transits was to try and do whatever I could to help out, irregardless of the cost to me and my well-being. Now I’m not saying this to paint myself as a saint. Nope. I’m actually embarrassed because I realize how I was basically a sucker and how much time and energy I have wasted on other folks self-created dramas. Time, energy and money that could have been used to find out my own dreams. Carrying this further is the fact of folks thinking they only have to talk to my husband about something that involves both of us. Excuse me?! This is 2013 not 1943!
So not only is my core getting a makeover but the vehicle in which my Sun is to travel in to do what it came here to do is being made over as well. Kinda like stripping the layers of paint off an antique piece, revealing the original finish underneath. That description is very àpropos because I grew up with mega fixed energy parents. My father was a Taurus Sun/Mercury/Uranus conjunct with an early degree Jupiter/Saturn conjunction in Taurus as well and Pluto in Leo. My mother is a Leo Sun/Jupiter/Pluto/North Node conjunct in Leo with Mercury in the late degrees of Leo and Mars in Taurus. See what I mean?
As I looked at the natal aspects that are being activated in my chart, I read in my books on these transits. “Alive and Well with Uranus“, “Alive and Well with Neptune“, “Alive and Well with Pluto” and “The Twelve Faces of Saturn” all by Bil Tierney are excellent books on the transits of these planets in the houses of your chart and the contacts to the planets in your chart. While he does not cover the minor aspects or the major aspects specifically, he gives a very detailed description of the aspect contact. Here’s the title to a section on Uranus/Earth Venus transits: “Breaking Habits” Yep, breaking the habit of always saying yes because I don’t want to be looked at as mean if I say no to a way of being that society says, I’m supposed to say yes to. A title for the one of the Air/Venus sections: “Rude Awakening” Oh yeah, definitely.
What I’m getting at here is that by looking at the minor aspect contacts, and reading on those contacts in addition to the obvious contact being made, the astrology starts to make sense. How do you make sense of the transits compared to what’s happening in your life?
- Maiden Voyage in the Astro Sky (pluranianrambullngs.com)
- Reawakening Emotional Freedom – Uranus Turns Retrograde as the Grand Water Trine Peaks (trangmoschino.wordpress.com)