Monthly Archives: September 2013
Saturn is making a 3rd sextile to my Ascendant since entering the sign of Scorpio last year, as it transits my 3rd house. Not sure when it’ll be exact as it is within 1 degree, but it’ll be soon. And man have I been filed with tons of self-doubt about well- everything. You’d think since this is going to be the 3rd hit and a relatively harmonious aspect that I’d have it together and not be fearful of doing-this. Writing. Communicating in general but specifically…about astrology, since I am not an astrologer. But we are talking about Saturn so that should not be too much of a surprise.
You see, in my natal chart Saturn and Chiron are conjunct my chart ruler Mercury retrograde in Pisces in my 7th. Yes, my Mercury is in its detriment and it’s retrograde so most probably would say that’s double detriment…conjunct Saturn and Chiron, triple detriment. And Saturn rules my 5th. Great! Not only is the way I go about life full of obstacles, pain and challenges, my fun and creativity-the stress relief valve, does not flow easily either. Before I knew anything about astrology, I used to think that so imagine how I felt when I did start to learn astrology. Until I realized, I don’t see or approach the world the way most people do. It’s definitely in a roundabout way that I manage to apply some structure to. However, it’s not in the “normal” microwave, gotta have it right now way society functions.
Recently I was looking back at the elementary school report cards I still have. Yeah, that was eons ago. lol My 2nd grade teacher wrote me up for talking too much in class and that I was a slow worker in doing my assigned work. Got in trouble with the parents so I seriously curtailed my speech from that point on, really cracked the books and tried to be invisible. After that I started getting As & Bs. That’s great and shoulda made the parents happy, right? Nope. I was then told that I only had book sense but no common sense. What a crushing thing to hear from your parents as a 7, 8-9 year old kid. That continued as I went through high school as well. Now this did not stop me from achieving academically (was #38 out of a graduating class of 603) but I did not do as well as I could have due to fear of really seeming like a smarty pants to my folks, mainly my mother but my father basically went along with whatever she said whenever he was home. Coupled with the fact in my culture, you were not supposed to be an intelligent female…what, how dare you?!
Water poured into my gas tank so my car can’t move. That’s how I think of the Ascendent as your car. Why..I mean I’m your kid? Afraid I might dig around learn something I’m not supposed to know? Or get an education to learn something that might enable me to have better choices and do better than you? Push repeat play on that mix tape of fear into my ear, ” You aren’t smart enough or have sense enough to see, think or have the skills to do anything “. Better yet, “No man is going to want you”.
But now 30 years later, it’s different…but a bit the same. Because it’s transiting Saturn, I like to look at it in the same way one looks at the Saturn return. After all Saturn in its travels around your chart will not only return to its natal position 30 years later, but will do the same to the other points/planets in your chart. Hence a new beginning or level of maturity to be expressed in this area of the chart.
Ah. I now realize that I need not fear “driving” along my path and I need not fear being who I am, which IS good enough, regardless of who likes it or not. I’ve acquired many skills and probably discovered some that I was born with but depressed by those fearing and maybe even jealous of. How can someone younger possibly know more? Going deep, questioning, analyzing, exploring. Got lots of goodies in the bag and it ain’t no junk.
Saturn has been beneficial as well by making sure Jupiter’s expansion does not get out of hand but at the same time putting effort behind Jupiter’s ideas. Hence the launch of this blog. The thought has been on my mind for some time but honestly I was scared to do it. Heck I’m still scared. That’s one of the reasons why it takes me so long for me to do a post. Writing…and really communication for that matter do not come easy to me. Though Saturn has also helped me to put more effort into my astrology studies by putting myself out there via the World Wide Web. Still gotta discpline myself more but Saturn has given me the push to cut down some of the distractions of the 3rd house. I have Jupiter in Gemini, the sign that naturally rules this house so that also means the distraction level is even higher. Saturn is teaching, if it’s not necessary, it’ll be done at a later time or cut out all together.
Hmm, it seems to me that the Ascendant is more than a mask. True, it’s what we present to world but I think it’s the vehicle that transports the planets in your chart around, so they can do their thang to help you grow and evolve throughout your time on this side of the earth, with the ruler(S) as the wise chauffeur. As least that’s what I think Saturn says…;-)
Do any of you look at the minor aspects of the transiting planets? They have captured my attention for a while now as events and/or feelings emerge but I can’t see anything based on where the planets are and they are not making any major aspects to anything in my chart. However, when I count up the distance the transiting planet is from my natal planet…ah ha!
One case in point…Uranus in Aries is conjunct my 8th Aries Sun. My Sun, Virgo Ascendant and Gemini MC are the only thing I have in the lower tens, single digit degrees in my chart. So only looking at the normally used major aspects, conjunction, sextile, square, trine and opposition, the only aspect Uranus appears to be making is a conjunction to my Sun. Going with the traditional meanings of Uranus conjuncting the Sun in the 8th would probably be something like this-an unexpected (Uranus) sexual encounter (8th house) that makes one shine. Hmph!! It really pisses me off that sex is the one of the main descriptions of the 8th house. The other one- inheritance. Both are non-issues for me and clearly are not hitting close to what is going on in my life. Until..
I remember that my Sun is quincunx my Ascendant and semi-square my 6th house Venus. The semi-square is hardly ever talked about as a natal aspect and even less so by transit. So if transiting Uranus is conjunct my Sun and in the natal chart the Sun is semi-square Venus, then transiting Uranus is semi-square my Venus. That also means that transiting Uranus is affecting my 6th house. Uh yeah, it sure has…in everything that Venus represents and 6th house matters.
Getting back to the other aspect to my Ascendant means that the Uranus/Pluto conjunction is being brought out to the fore, though it will be more so when Uranus aspects my Mars. Transiting Pluto is also semi-square my Venus and squaring my Sun. Also transiting Chiron is semi-sextile my Sun.
I have felt every one of these so-called minor aspects. Uranus and Pluto as I mentioned before, is calling for my Sun to come out of the shadows. Just this week I had to stand up for myself by saying no to a responsibility being put on me ( care-taking of someones child ) because it is the traditional responsibility of a female. Nope, I am not a “traditional” female.
If I was supposed to fill that role, I don’t think I would have been born with Uranus/Pluto conjunct my Ascendant combined with a Sun/Mars Aries conjunction and that Mars quincunxing Uranus and Pluto. My 4th and 5th houses are empty, my Venus is in Aquarius, I have nothing in Cancer and I’ve never had or wanted to have children. Helllooo!! This also brings up the hurt (Chiron) of not being seen for who I was by my father (Sun).
You see, my normal modus operandi prior to the mid-life transits was to try and do whatever I could to help out, irregardless of the cost to me and my well-being. Now I’m not saying this to paint myself as a saint. Nope. I’m actually embarrassed because I realize how I was basically a sucker and how much time and energy I have wasted on other folks self-created dramas. Time, energy and money that could have been used to find out my own dreams. Carrying this further is the fact of folks thinking they only have to talk to my husband about something that involves both of us. Excuse me?! This is 2013 not 1943!
So not only is my core getting a makeover but the vehicle in which my Sun is to travel in to do what it came here to do is being made over as well. Kinda like stripping the layers of paint off an antique piece, revealing the original finish underneath. That description is very àpropos because I grew up with mega fixed energy parents. My father was a Taurus Sun/Mercury/Uranus conjunct with an early degree Jupiter/Saturn conjunction in Taurus as well and Pluto in Leo. My mother is a Leo Sun/Jupiter/Pluto/North Node conjunct in Leo with Mercury in the late degrees of Leo and Mars in Taurus. See what I mean?
As I looked at the natal aspects that are being activated in my chart, I read in my books on these transits. “Alive and Well with Uranus“, “Alive and Well with Neptune“, “Alive and Well with Pluto” and “The Twelve Faces of Saturn” all by Bil Tierney are excellent books on the transits of these planets in the houses of your chart and the contacts to the planets in your chart. While he does not cover the minor aspects or the major aspects specifically, he gives a very detailed description of the aspect contact. Here’s the title to a section on Uranus/Earth Venus transits: “Breaking Habits” Yep, breaking the habit of always saying yes because I don’t want to be looked at as mean if I say no to a way of being that society says, I’m supposed to say yes to. A title for the one of the Air/Venus sections: “Rude Awakening” Oh yeah, definitely.
What I’m getting at here is that by looking at the minor aspect contacts, and reading on those contacts in addition to the obvious contact being made, the astrology starts to make sense. How do you make sense of the transits compared to what’s happening in your life?
- Maiden Voyage in the Astro Sky (pluranianrambullngs.com)
- Reawakening Emotional Freedom – Uranus Turns Retrograde as the Grand Water Trine Peaks (trangmoschino.wordpress.com)
What I have somewhat neglected to recognize consciously is the fact that my Ascendant has been receiving laser beams at it by all the outer planets starting with Jupiter and including the North Node. I’ll talk about these in future posts but in this one I’ll talk about Jupiter. Don’t be surprised if there is another post to go along with this one.
Jupiter in Cancer, while in the single digits have sextild my Ascendant and explains the yo-yo effect on my appetite and the way that I look at life. At first I started back craving sweets and my all time favorite potato chips. Then the cravings kinda went away or maybe I should say I’ve had more willpower (Scorpio) and discipline (Saturn) to control the indulging the last few weeks. Taking a risk of sounding like Martha Stewart, “that’s a good thing” because my waistline has expanded from all those (Jupiter) size bag of chips I have been eating…by myself. I am definitely an emotional eater and the emotions have run on overdrive as I go from being optimistic, well somewhat optimistic as being one of those happy-go-lucky totally optimistic is so not me, to totally pessimistic.
Maybe one day, I’ll be optimistic. Nah, I doubt that…too Plutonian.
Now Jupiter in Cancer so far has delivered more than just the bag or three of chips lol. As he’s traveled through my 11th house, he’s gifted me in the form of expanding my network. More accurately, I’m finding my tribe which is basically what a family is. The difference being its with people who are not related by blood. And the best part… you get to choose!
Again, a good thing as finding these people has helped me feel more secure in learning, expanding, exploring and sharing the Uranian part of me that has been forced underground since childhood. That goes for the Plutonian part as well since they are as one in my natal chart.
I’m reading “Exploring the Astrological Key to Jupiter” by Stephen Arroyo so I’m sure I’ll have more to say later. And hopefully my posts will get better.