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The Invitation

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by allisonpurves

The Invitation by Oriah Mountain Dreamer

It doesn’t interest me
what you do for a living.
I want to know
what you ache for
and if you dare to dream
of meeting your heart’s longing.

It doesn’t interest me
how old you are.
I want to know
if you will risk
looking like a fool
for love
for your dream
for the adventure of being alive.

It doesn’t interest me
what planets are
squaring your moon…
I want to know
if you have touched
the centre of your own sorrow
if you have been opened
by life’s betrayals
or have become shrivelled and closed
from fear of further pain.

I want to know
if you can sit with pain
mine or your own
without moving to hide it
or fade it
or fix it.

I want to know
if you can be with joy
mine or your own
if you can dance with wildness
and let the ecstasy fill you
to the tips of your fingers and toes
without cautioning us
to be careful
to be realistic
to remember the limitations
of being human.

It doesn’t interest me
if the story you are telling me
is true.
I want to know if you can
disappoint another
to be true to yourself.
If you can bear
the accusation of betrayal
and not betray your own soul.
If you can be faithless
and therefore trustworthy.

I want to know if you can see Beauty
even when it is not pretty
every day.
And if you can source your own life
from its presence.

I want to know
if you can live with failure
yours and mine
and still stand at the edge of the lake
and shout to the silver of the full moon,
“Yes.”

It doesn’t interest me
to know where you live
or how much money you have.
I want to know if you can get up
after the night of grief and despair
weary and bruised to the bone
and do what needs to be done
to feed the children.

It doesn’t interest me
who you know
or how you came to be here.
I want to know if you will stand
in the centre of the fire
with me
and not shrink back.

It doesn’t interest me
where or what or with whom
you have studied.
I want to know
what sustains you
from the inside
when all else falls away.

I want to know
if you can be alone
with yourself
and if you truly like
the company you keep
in the empty moments.

 

To me this poem speaks to the Plutonian/Scorpio/8th house part of my being.  Pluto is rising in the 1st house, the South Node is Scorpio , with an 8th house Sun/Mars conjunction.  Yep…I’m very Plutonian.

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My Sun Will Rise

The sun rises

Jupiter in Cancer is squaring my Aries Sun while Uranus in Aries is conjunct my Sun.  As Uranus has been retrograde, it will back up over my Sun for its second run-in. Whew , I have gotten a bit of a break from Pluto, though it’s still technically squaring my Sun but not as close as Jupiter.

So what is the Sun, astrologically that is? It’s your core, deep down inside that we are to blossom into. Your life force. Your center. Literally the heart of you. The Sun is rules by the sign Leo and Leo rules the heart. It makes perfect sense because without the rays of the Sun there would be no life on earth. And for life on Earth, at least for mammals, no heartbeat means no life.  The Sun is also where you must shine to feel alive. This is something I’m still learning about…well actually all of astrology. lol

One of my favorite astrologers Donna van Toen mentioned in her tidbits of wisdom she offers from time to time  “the Sun is not “what you are”; it’s what you’re in the process of becoming…”  I do believe that is true.

Yeah, my Aries Sun being pummeled into a new form, now and will be for the next 2-3 of years.  But you know what? It needs it. Why? My Aries Sun is buried deep in the 8th house. Yep that dark, scary 8th house that no one likes to talk about. I get glimpses every so often of what that Aries Sun should be and I’ve even played the starring role a few times. But then it goes right back into its hiding spot for various reasons that I’m sure I’ll share later.

Now it’s being forced to come out and get in the game.

As I mentioned earlier the Sun is ruled by Leo which is masculine energy. The Sun is exalted in Aries meaning it’s the sign that the Sun most easily operates in and functions better than the sign it rules.  Why is that? Aries energy is masculine just like Leo’s energy but what makes it exalted I think is,  in order for Leo to really shine, it needs an audience. Whereas Aries will shine and do what it’s gonna do regardless, even if nobody else is around to see. Because it is. The Sun shines 24/7/365, whether we see it as we do on a day that’s not cloudy, or on a cloud filled day or night time.

It takes courage (Aries) to shine and follow your heart (Sun). This is part of what I’m learning.

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Cera is Hoppin’ Mad

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Jaded Bullyvic Says: My New Year’s Resolution, To Be A Kinder More Caring Person, Just As All Feminists Should. I Just Haven’t Decided On Which January 1st To Start (Photo credit: ImNotMraBut)

Mars in Cancer is exactly inconjunct (150 degrees) my Venus in Aquarius today. This positioning in the sky is not boding well for me, As a matter of fact I’m downright irritable.Though the pressure has eased off a bit from earlier today when the Moon was right on my Venus.

The inconjunct is an aspect that requires adjustment and is an irritant. Not as irritating as a square or opposition but an irritant nonetheless. Let’s see why I’m feeling irritated.

The Moon rules the sign of Cancer. Cancer being the 4th sign of the Zodiac represents home, family, nurturing, tradition, staying close to home, what’s familiar, your roots, your foundation, your ancestry. Cancer energy feels its way through and approaches life in an indirect way. Back and forth, sideways and zig- zag. The Crab, Cancer’s symbol moves about in this way.

On the other hand Mars rules Aries the 1st sign of the Zodiac. (hey that’s my Mars and Sun sign :-). Aries is the sign of the warrior, action, bravery, the pioneer, the self. Aries energy is fast and direct. I bet the person who coined the phrase the phrase “the fastest way between point A & B is a straight line was an Aries. No beating around the bush with this sign.

So based on what’s been said above, you can see why Mars would not be so happy in the sign of Cancer. The astrological terminology for the Aries/Cancer relationship is a square (90 degrees). That’s another irritating reason.

Adding lighter fuel to this fire is the fact that my Venus is in Aquarius, the sign of the rebel. Non-traditional. Freedom loving. “Don’t put me in a box” energy. Non status-quo. The future.

Uranus rules the sign of Aquarius and is transiting where?! Aries!!  Hmm, there is a pattern here.

Cera (that would be me) definitely needs to make some changes at home in the way she operates for a better future. Otherwise…it won’t be pretty. For me or anybody else. The status-quo must go!! lol

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Astrologer Nancy Fenn, RIP

English: This is an image of the planet Uranus...

English: This is an image of the planet Uranus taken by the spacecraft Voyager 2 in 1986 (Photo credit: Wikipedia)

 

No sure if this is Uranus transiting my 8th house and conjunct my Sun related, but I was very shocked (Uranus) to learn that astrologer Nancy Fenn had passed (8th house) a few months ago.

I was on her email list and I have had a few mini specific topic readings done with her that I still refer to 5 years later. I also helped her albeit very briefly with prep work of drawing up charts on astro.com for her readings. I never thought about it until now but she really was the first person to introduce me to an actual birth chart other than my own.  Now for some strange mysterious reason, I dropped off her email sometime in 2009 I think.  Well, Neptune is in my 3rd house and I have a 7th house Mercury in Pisces-both retrograde so that kind of thing is really not all that uncommon in my life.

How in the world did we end up crossing paths again? I was doing a search on some astrological topic as I usually do and an old post of her’s on her blog came up. I remember reading that post when it was first published but as a Mercury retrograde native, I tend to re-read things a lot-mainly because I almost always discover something else I did not pick up on before and/or I get a better understanding the 2nd time around.

So I decided to see if she was still blogging since this particular blog post was written in 2008.  The last post on this blog was 2010. I thought this was kinda odd but not so much since I knew she had other websites and might have been more active with those. However, something told me to click on her Facebook badge. That’s when I found out the news.

How or why do I think this is related to my 8th house Uranus transit? . The notification date on Facebook of her passing was May 19. May 19 was my deceased father’s birthday, who passed away suddenly of a heart attack in 1998. Leo rules the heart. One of the things the Sun represents in the birth chart is the father/authority figure.

Now how does this relate to Nancy Fenn as of course, she was not my father? I tend to think the planets in your chart can represent real people in your life. Don’t quote me on this but I think Nancy was a Leo Sun. The sign that the Sun rules is Leo.  Uranus rules things like astrology and sudden events. Uranus is also aspecting, though via a minor one, my natal Mercury.  So putting it all together, sudden insight via astrology about your father and/or an authority figure. True for me in both cases as I’m learning more about my father via astrology and Ms Nancy was an authority figure for me at the time, about astrology.

In closing, I remember her asking me why did I want to take part in her little experiment in which I replied “It seems like it’s moving me along my North Node path and it’s (astrology) helping people to understand themselves. Of course, I’m only getting the charts ready so you can do the reading but it’s something and it’s helping me to learn”.

Thank you Nancy Fenn for being a brief though positive influence in my astrological world .  RIP.

 

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Maiden Voyage in the Astro Sky

SpaceShip One

SpaceShip One (Photo credit: Jonathan Thorne CC)

Inspired by my midlife transits of Saturn opposing natal Saturn, Uranus opposing natal Uranus and Neptune squaring natal Neptune, all aspecting my natal Mercury, I ventured into the blogging world in 2008.  I had also started studying astrology beyond the common Sun sign astrology.  However I was a bit reluctant and afraid to put my thoughts out there so my writing was mainly about my new journey which I will talk about astrologically later and a few things I talked about on my YouTube channel with a scant few references to astrology.

Fast forward to 2013, with these outer planets aspecting my natal Mercury, all though this time via the so-called minor aspects and more knowledge gained of myself, I’ve been inspired or shall I say compelled to get my astrological thoughts out there. Hence the birth of this blog instead of writing about these topics on my other blog.

Oh my-I’m looking at my Current Planetary Positions app and lol, Mars is now trine my chart ruler Mercury and Mercury is trine my Mars, with Uranus conjunct my Sun and Jupiter square. Sorta fitting huh.

I hope you will Join me as RamBull (you’ll see later where this comes from) through the stars on my journey to self discovery and hopefully it will shed some light on your journey to self discovery as well.

 

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